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Yesterday was one of those days that couldn't have possibly gone any worse, dare I say. It has left me in the mind set that everything is about to come crashing down on me. It's amazing how you can go from one day where you are on top of the world to complete depression. Today I didn't even feel like i existed. I am so use to doing things on my own, and taking care of others that I've lost all sense of direction in my own life. What it is i'm shooting for and how to get there, or even if i am going to get there. I fight and fight everyday to have a decent life style and a degree, but sometimes it feels as though though things will never come around. Good things come to those who wait... well i'm tired of that. I have waited and all that i find myself doing is going against the grain for nothing. For something that has taken so long to get and has never got here. I don't exist. I feel as though i'm not actually here and that everything around me is just an illusion of some kind. that nobody really knows me or has ever known me and that i have never actually been on this planet. I feel like bruce willis in the sixth sense. What do i do? well i guess it's time to go to bed and get my 2 hrs of sleep before another day of school, work, and studying... Will those days ever end?????? that's what i'm working towards, be ashame if i never made it there wouldn't it????
  • (Anonymous)
    I feel ya brother
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